Whining.

Before Whine: Pissed.

Well, I’m going to whine today, a very long whine. That’s what commonly blog is used for anyway. Okay, here comes the whine!

I got this friend, her name is not important and it seems not fair for me to write her name here on the public blog. She’s the only one from my closest friends that is very pessimist and cynical about my obsession with Alan Rickman. She is the one who always give a negative remarks (sometimes sounds like she’s trying to say ‘you’re insane’) whenever she heard me talking about Alan. I don’t take it seriously of course… It’s just ignorant remarks, but then it started to become tiring, more important it hurts and get to my nerves.

So, today… After she stated her once again ignorant remarks, I said to her with this stressed voice of mine, “I LOVE HIM, and I’M HAPPY, why can’t you understand that?” and I really want to add, “YOU STUPID, IGNORANT, UN-FEELING SILLY COW! A POOR EXCUSES FOR A FRIEND!” (No, for friendship shakes I didn’t add it) Not that she don’t have boyfriend to love, she do HAVE and that’s what make things worst! How could she just stated all those ignorant, negative remarks and then write “Rickmanism is BAD, no passion and et cetera, et cetera..” on the classroom desk and suddenly I began to exploded inside and says to her with a very unlikely voice “NO PASSION? Rickmanism is full of passion! You can’t write it! If you-don’t-know-it! And it’s not BAD! It’s good, it makes me happy”. I feel bad, lord knows after what I said I feel bad towards her. She’s just unbelievably shallow minded. I feel like punching her face and drown her, face first in a basin!

She never appreciates me and my passion, always very egoistic and full of herself. I’ve grown tired by it!

And then one of another my friend asked, who do we think shall married first and who shall married last in our class. And she’s once again stated me as the last. That’s very hurting man! I don’t think that’s going to feel hurts, but when she points her finger at me, it really did felt hurts. ”YOU COW AND STUPID! I hate you with every fiber of my existence!” I really want to say that to her but like Winston Churchill said, “Always write angry letters to your enemies. Never mail them ;)

Well, I’m done with the whine. Next is Alan related news:
‘My name is Rachel Corrie’ the controversy play that was directed by Alan Rickman and showed in Royal Court Theatre, London, last April will be transfer to New York Workshop Theatre in March.

Lucky New Yorkers got to see Mr Rickman Brilliant Work!

Mood After Whine:

Normal

and a bit excited as well.

Comments

[Raluca Cristina]

Hey Marlina, sweetie, you really shouldn`t pay too much attention to these things. They`re just dumb stuff. Sometimes it`s just in someone`s character to judge evrything from their point of view without accepting any other perception. But in this cas, blame it on the age. It`s a difficult time and people tend to generalize way to much. If you express your admiration for a certain personality, many teenagers tend to believe you`re just another fangirl. Which, most of the time, is tru. But knowing you and knowing you are a very open minded and mature person, I see things as they hould be seen.Think of how much you`ve learned during this let`s call it experience. I know I did and still do every single day, not to mention all the wonderful people I met! You bing one of them.
As for the wedding chat, those imprssions are very childlish and I`m sure you s it that way too. People tnd to see love and marriage as som kind of divine dream and as a teenager`s goal os somthing. People, wake up and smell the coffee, there is so much beside this. When rality sets in, they`re in for a big surprise. And you shouldn`t be worried at all, it`s nothing wrong with you if you like some dude you see on TV better than a "real life" person. What would w be without drams? It`s when you dive in too deep that you should stop and consider what you`re doing. It`s a shame to let the "real life" escape us. There are many beauties there as well so be sure you don`t miss those too.
On a different tone, I LOVE Jan Eyre and The Scarlet Letter! Not to mention S&S! Great tastes, kiddo! But what`s 5 cm about? I seem to have escaped that. You write also? That`s terrific! We have another thing in common! My best wishes to you!

Please excuse the highly possible misstypping, my keyboard has some issues of her own and I`m much to lazy to edit my posts!
Chris

[Marlina]

I know Chris, it's just anger talking at that moment.. I usually never care for what her negative opinion about my admiration.
And don't worry ;) i don't miss my real life.

You read 'Jane Eyre' too?! Awesome! There's a discussion in Alan IMDB board that Alan should play Mr Rochester if they ever remake the movie! What do you think?
And about '5 cm' it's no wonder why you never heard of it, it's an Indonesia Novel about friendship. It's a very inspiring book.. Here let me translate you one quote from the book that i really find inspiring:

"Whenever you want to achieve something, put it here, 5 cm from your forehead, focus on it and chase it, chase it until you can achieve it".

Don't worry about misstyping ;) I can understand clearly what you write.

[Raluca Cristina]

Oh oh oh! such a nice quote! And also VERY VERY true! I`ll try to remember that one!
Well to me you look like a very in-touch-with-life-and-herself girl so keep it up! I love your positive attitude! Mainly, it`s the only thing that can keep us going, especially in times like this, whn instead of support you only find ignorance.
He I watched a documntary of some sort on Discovery a while back and I fell in love with Indonesia! So please, consider this and in your next post maybe you can add some more picturs of you in you "natural habitat"! :) Cheers! Chris

[Marlina]

They must show you a place called Bali! It's a very beautiful place.. No wonder you fell in love! LOL!

I'm afraid me in my what you called 'natural habitat' is an ordinary developing city LOL! But, when i went to the beach and mountain again... I'll take pictures for you ;)